justrun-.

okay i'm tired

for some reason, i'm losing myself. maybe it's the recent endoscopy. or recent crappy muscle strains (yes i no longer think that they are aches, i am pretty sure they are strains). anyway, it's highly depressing.

and i hate it when people step all over you like you're a piece of shit. because people like me dislike people who do that and because it isn't very nice.

this is bad. bingeing been going on. actually it was fine till endoscopy day. when i had to fast. ugh. terrible. i feel sick... my whole body's in pain. and there's double session tmr again.

sometimes i just wish i knew the most ideal way to go about doing something. you know? so you don't have to worry about making mistakes. mistakes annoy me. flaws are just unacceptable in a perfectionist's eyes.

losing control. and that just makes me so mad. like ANGRY! mad.

i think it's training fatigue. it's hindering my ability to think straight. so confused right now. omg i ate too much again :( sigh how to lose weight like that?! damn pissed off at myself.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [00:08]

and took [20060317] strides

it's the passion that drives you